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I made pies grandma's pies… https://familyhistory.joshuadpatterson.com/pumpkin-pie/ I made a couple of revisions this year that are not reflected in the recipe yet. Due to jello no longer making easy availability of the 3oz (small box) cook and serve pudding, I made 3 pies with the traditional recipe. Yet, the recipe needed to be updated, so I found that if you use 1 4.7oz box of cook and serve with 3.5 tb of sugar, 1.3 tsp of pie spice and everything else the same it works really well. On top of that I learned that the traditional recipe calls for the mix to be stirred for one minute at boiling, but does not define boiling. So, bubbling starts at 160 Fahrenheit, but you should cook it (constantly stirring) to 200 degrees Fahrenheit for 30 seconds. And it becomes much more firm. So those are my revelations from this year.#starwars #pumpkinpie #pie #millennium #maythepiebewithyou – from Instagram

I made pies grandma's pies… https://familyhistory.joshuadpatterson.com/pumpkin-pie/ I made a couple of revisions this year that are not reflected in the recipe yet. Due to jello no longer making easy availability of the 3oz (small box) cook and serve pudding, I made 3 pies with the traditional recipe. Yet, the recipe needed to be updated, so I found that if you use 1 4.7oz box of cook and serve with 3.5 tb of sugar, 1.3 tsp of pie spice and everything else the same it works really well. On top of that I learned that the traditional recipe calls for the mix to be stirred for one minute at boiling, but does not define boiling. So, bubbling starts at 160 Fahrenheit, but you should cook it (constantly stirring) to 200 degrees Fahrenheit for 30 seconds. And it becomes much more firm. So those are my revelations from this year.#starwars #pumpkinpie #pie #millennium #maythepiebewithyou – from Instagram

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Anthopleura elegantissima, also known as the aggregating anemone or clonal anemone, is the most abundant species of sea anemonefound on rocky, tide swept shores along the Pacific coast of North America. This cnidarian hosts endosymbiotic algae called zooxanthellae that contribute substantially to primary productivity in the intertidal zone. A. elegantissima has become a model organism for the study of temperate cnidarian-algal symbioses. #science #tidepools #oregon #astoria #beach #springbreak – from Instagram

Anthopleura elegantissima, also known as the aggregating anemone or clonal anemone, is the most abundant species of sea anemonefound on rocky, tide swept shores along the Pacific coast of North America. This cnidarian hosts endosymbiotic algae called zooxanthellae that contribute substantially to primary productivity in the intertidal zone. A. elegantissima has become a model organism for the study of temperate cnidarian-algal symbioses. #science #tidepools #oregon #astoria #beach #springbreak – from Instagram

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Lost as Jean Clarisso

Lost as Jean Clarisso

Jean Clarisso, lost soul, lost heart don’t look for answers in a bitter pill. Jean Clarisso, broken past, though she was Ash but left in the fires of her fury we can only dash the gauge of what was left behind. Jean Clarisso. Hide not, for the hearts you broke...

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Breaking off

Breaking off

Cutting the final connections has made me really, very sad over the last few days. It had to be done. I will never be who I was when I was with you, somehow, I will be better. Which is exciting to think about, because when I was with you when I was happy. I was...

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To the monsters who hide behind Sarahah

To the monsters who hide behind Sarahah

Anonymity does not give you power! Anonymity does place you in a position of power. Anonymity does not give you a right to be a dick. Anonymity does not give you a bigger dick. Anonymity does not give you a dick. Anonymity doe does not give you the ability, to tell...

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Why does North Korea hate the U.S.? Look to the Korean War.

Why does North Korea hate the U.S.? Look to the Korean War.

Why does the DPRK want to destroy America? This is a good question that deserves an answer. For an answer, we need to look at history. And the tens of thousands of American and Chinese that we murdered. Ask yourself, if this happened in the USA, would we be angry?...

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Faded

Faded

Faded is my heart’s desire Past tense the flame of the liar The key you possess To the box in my chest Please do not light the...

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Saltpeter beats

Saltpeter beats

She filled my heart with hope, then gun powder. She lit a match, then walked away....

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Green dot

Green dot

Green dot you challenge me, your pressing glow of activity seems to signify when to know one’s favor has fallen. An indicator, a reoccurring nightmare of self-conscious questioning, Where do I now fall in the avatar line, and in which line was my interest found...

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When voice acts as touch.

When voice acts as touch.

Sigh, the memory of your touch, your voice, is haunting me right now. Your touch, your voice, it always left me feeling sexy, wanted, cared for. Your words, and even sometimes your actions, enforced your statement that we “fit like a glove, a love glove”...

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Take the risk

Take the risk

I guess, I read this post and was left with not despondency, but instead, hope, and a thoughtfulness that we COULD all be like that if we chose to. If we could stand up above our pain, and our jaded past. If we could leave that behind us and walk into romance, open hands, and willing to accept the risk and possibly reap the reward.

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The Red Storm

The Red Storm

The dark skies in my heart, have no balance, without the storm in which you created. The earth below, covered in a red glow, that is the after breath of my broken heart. Solemn is the air in which your name is carried, on the breath of darkness, I hear Ashe Renee, day...

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Thankful for the value of friendship.

Thankful for the value of friendship.

Goodmorning happy people! I have not done thanks for 2 days, and you know what, that is okay. Because my thankful posts have been about reminding myself, that even when things are down, they are really up. My thankfulness is surrounded by my friends. Lifelong friends...

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The song I can’t disconnect.

The song I can’t disconnect.

Almost all the music that was about us I have been able to change the focus of, to something else, disconnect the memories. Something about this song, I do not know why I can’t disassociate it with you....

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Clock on the wall.

Clock on the wall.

The subtle tick of the clock on the wall, the clock was given to her by her grandmother was all you could hear over their breath and the rope as it crossed over itself. The occasional whence could only be expressed in her mind, with the gag in her mouth, it was too...

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The Key to his response.

The Key to his response.

She stared at the key, resting on its hook across the room, unable to reach it, bound by service, and jute. She knew if she could approach the element of freedom, master would scorn her. She would be bad, and bad is just what she wanted to be. But how, from her...

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Another vacation in “paradise”.

Another vacation in “paradise”.

Another vacation in “paradise” she thought to herself. I hate this place, I want to be home, “I want to be playing skyrim” she said aloud. As he walked out the door, Sir turned to her and asked her to give it a shot, that “it has been over a year...

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Discovering Kitten

Discovering Kitten

I wrote this in another group, as a reply to someone’s questions about BDSM and trust. I RE read it today. I am at the point of looking into the past and recognizing its beauty, instead of feeling the pain of change. This was truly a deep romantic moments that I...

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Done with all your games!

Done with all your games!

I mean the message could not be more clear, I got yours.. Here is one for you.   Oh Yeah got the message, here's my reply. #musicforlove #musicfortheend #moveon #dropthemic #dropthebeatz #gamingmusic #running #notimeforgames #otherthingstodo #kitten...

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Cycles

Cycles

  I crave the cycle, yes sir, no, yes sir, no, yes… With every bite of the lip.  With every gentle correction. We learn to trust together. Y ou choose, to trust.  I honor, the trust, you give to me. I protect your heart. I guide your spirit....

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Blessed this Solstice is; as the smoke of lavender and sage fill this space, I offer up to the universe closure.And an end to the bills, and debt in this fire,And I offer up to the universe this love that I carried with me, That shaped and defined me as I redefined myself. These two corks, that were our last together burn together as we burn out. Into the universe with this fire; that it may come back three-fold, warming me inside, and outside.To my spirit shall return the love that I give, and let go of now.So that I can heal, and grow, in the shadows of the flames walk out and be whole. #BlessedBe #solstice #sunmer #offering #prayers #peace #healing #npd #wholeness #seasonofchange – from Instagram

Blessed this Solstice is; as the smoke of lavender and sage fill this space, I offer up to the universe closure.And an end to the bills, and debt in this fire,And I offer up to the universe this love that I carried with me, That shaped and defined me as I redefined myself. These two corks, that were our last together burn together as we burn out. Into the universe with this fire; that it may come back three-fold, warming me inside, and outside.To my spirit shall return the love that I give, and let go of now.So that I can heal, and grow, in the shadows of the flames walk out and be whole. #BlessedBe #solstice #sunmer #offering #prayers #peace #healing #npd #wholeness #seasonofchange – from Instagram

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Solstice offering prayer 2017

Solstice offering prayer 2017

Blessed this Solstice is; as the smoke of lavender and sage fill this space, I offer up to the universe closure. And an end to the bills, and debt in this fire, And I offer up to the universe this love that I carried with me, That shaped and defined me as I redefined...

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Failed 

Failed 

Promises failed Expectations failed. Life failed. Reset button pressed

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Letting go… Goodbye Alice Sunshine Watson…

Letting go… Goodbye Alice Sunshine Watson…

Letting go… Means that I do not care that you dropped the Steam connection. Means that I am happy that you are moved on, as much as I am happy that I am moved on. Means that I presume you are growing more resentful. Means that I presume you are expecting a...

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One kid.

One kid.

One kid, wants to just play video games all day. One kid just wanted to go do something fun One kid just wants to eat all the time and watch thomas. One dad just wants to not feel alone on this walk, I felt for the first time, like I was not alone in my walk, it was...

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3am again. 

3am again. 

I​t’s 3am and you are on my mind again. I went to an open mic poetry event tonight, everyone bared witness to the aftermath as recorded in my dialog. The confusion, the question. They saw the look on my face as I reminded the universe though verse. That i daily...

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At the hospital 

At the hospital 

I ​wish I could count on you. Fuck I miss that. But ironically, one call, and I would be wherever you are at a moment’s notice. No matter the distance no matter the reason. Because that was my promise and I made it with my heart. And Support it with my mind....

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Fuck Yes or No

Fuck Yes or No

Just incase you were unaware. I was always FUCK YES, about you. And you always seemed FUCK YES about me. Until you were no.. and now I am no.. and fuck off 🙂 I hope you find your fuck yes. I know I will. The Law of “Fuck Yes or No” states that when you want to get...

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The Moral High Ground

The Moral High Ground

In all there is equality, mutual choice and responsibility. Actions that create reactions. As things end, and we prepare to move on, Wisdom, the wisdom we gained from this; could be expressed in our ability to stand opposite each other, on our own mountaintops, and...

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The thing about time

The thing about time

The nice thing about time, as it passes, you get further away from my mind. Thank gods for that reality. Not resentful, but for sure, thankful that all this shit is passing me by, and that I’m getting over the pain that you left. That I am still stronger because...

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Promises

Promises

Promises I meant that, when I said it I can stick to that, because I said it. The situation only changes the approach. I will always be here to answer your call, should it ever come. Don’t expect the same Hum drum, since you left I am a new person. I learned how...

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Soon, iPhones will block texts while driving – Jun. 5, 2017

Before you get all bent out of shape about this, and your freedoms.. Try Thinking about this. According to the National Highway Traffic Safety Administration, eight people are killed each day in crashes involving distracted driving, Source: Soon, iPhones will block...

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The State Of Advanced Website Builders – Smashing Magazine

PLATFORMS LINK As “basic” web development moves towards commoditization, businesses will look to advanced web development to stand out. Creating platforms for businesses and/or their customers is another opportunity. I’m using the term platform to include website...

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-= The Glow =-

-= The Glow =-

I miss the glow, That kept me awake, The look on your face, as you stared into cyberspace. Seven knights, captured lights, The glow that was so bright next to me. I miss the glow, That let me know You were there, Next to me.  ...

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3am

3am

Still can’t sleep but at least your not on my mind much anymore. Mostly trying to understand your lies. Accepting that your words and touch are bullshit has been a lot easier than accepting that I will never know why. Why You hurt me, you hurt my family, you...

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F. m. 

F. m. 

The only one who can forgive and move on, is me. I forgive you. I move on.

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-= Tear =-

-= Tear =-

-= Tear =-   The corner of my eye, is never dry. It has not been in months. It is not allergies, it is not dry, I did not poke it, and it’s not a lash. No Ashe, There is something in my eye..   To see it you must look carefully. Past my pupil and into the dark....

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-= When time Stops =-

-= When time Stops =-

I know you are out there. I know you can feel me. Learning to wait for our moment to come, is; Learning to wait for the stars to fall from the skies. Learning to wait for the tides to shift, the earth to grow quiet. Learning to wait for the moment when our eyes meet,...

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Words of growth, on NEEDING someone else to be happy.

Words of growth, on NEEDING someone else to be happy.

Now that you are behind me, I can see just how far forward I am headed.   Man, I have been thinking about your post all day. Brother!, you are a really nice person, every time I have met you. You have a great presence to you. I would love if you would consider...

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3-4

3-4

3-4 3:30am. Unsolicited my heart wanders to our memory. 3:15am I get up and do busy work, trying to ignore you. 3:30am conflicted I look at a picture with logging illusion. 3:40am my mind wakes up, and reminded my heart its bleeding because of you, quickly putting a...

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Assumptions and accusations.

Assumptions and accusations.

You were wrong! You jumped to a conclusion. I never created an email address to invite you to the party. I did update the NAME only on that email address to my pen name… The email address I used, was the one you had the password to, the one created for OTG.. You...

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5 Keys To Identifying Your SoulMate

5 Keys To Identifying Your SoulMate

So, I am not really into “preaching” or “god” but this was actually really great! Everything about this was great! THIS is worth watching! Chemistry – I LOVE how he defined “Chemistry” Connection Wholeness – Being whole...

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Delete.

Delete.

Delete How can I leave? When every time I open anything for months, there you will be. Smile shining back at me. Everyone says get rid of the photos, but I can’t. My heart breaks with joy for the moments we shared. I can’t. I did take everything down around the house,...

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DONE!

DONE!

I did it, I blocked her on everything, stashed away our photos. Tossed the shit she left here.. No more.. I am not playing this game, anymore.. ~~ DONE ~~ From Today.. I will never, ever do this to myself again, even if it means I never fall in love again.. I will...

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The Kids

The Kids

The Kids, Showed you a love I could not. Accepted you, in a way I could not. You held them, in a way, I could not. You left them, in a way, I could not. No reason, no love, no promise, no dove. You lied, in a way, I could not. You loved us, in a way, I could not. You...

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Reflecting on Matchbox 20

Reflecting on Matchbox 20

“Do you miss Matchbox 20?” My reply: “If your gone“, I would wait until “3 am” to answer that, its been a “long day” and i’m “overjoyed” “time after time” this “disease” called...

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BILLIONS!

BILLIONS!

THERE ARE BILLIONS! With a B! Billions Of people on earth! Tens of THOUSANDS of them are a great match for you! Stop stressing about that ONE who was an asshole! #goodnight, #deepjoshthoughts #thereisanotheroneforme #fishingthesea...

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Unexpected 

Unexpected 

It’s still unexpected and hard to cope with. Moments like this where I lay down in bed. And miss you being in it. I don’t remember missing any one in many years. But for some reason, I sure do miss...

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Letting you go IS loving you.

Letting you go IS loving you.

I feel guilty…        I feel like I am being a bad person, by just walking away. I feel like I am some how lying to you about caring about you. I feel frustrated you won’t plan getting your things… I feel like this is a control on...

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The Storm

The Storm

As things fell down around me you were there to look me in the eye, hold my hand breathe with me. You were my shelter in the storm. When you left, it became clear you were the storm. As you walked away the dust settles and the enormity of the swath of your destruction...

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Just grow up already from the perspective of a person who has studied psychology and society, personally I feel that the silent treatment is one of the most #offensive methodologies of disassociation & #Control people who utilize the silent treatment completely rack the ability to #empathize with the effects that it renders on another human being. Spirit who may  be more in touch with themselves than the person who practices this behavior. #npd #healing – from Instagram

Just grow up already from the perspective of a person who has studied psychology and society, personally I feel that the silent treatment is one of the most #offensive methodologies of disassociation & #Control people who utilize the silent treatment completely rack the ability to #empathize with the effects that it renders on another human being. Spirit who may be more in touch with themselves than the person who practices this behavior. #npd #healing – from Instagram

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-= The bite  =-

-= The bite =-

The sad sick truth, the reality of it all, is the greatest poison of them all, I have self-administered. The venomous memory left behind, in every thought that I fail to bind, to the promise that I would ignore, our past and move forward. Do not, let ego drive you, we...

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-= Rose =-

-= Rose =-

-= Rose =- Peace proposed though your enigmatic rose. Believe you not, I see the thorns. This “peace” you suggest to me, can never be, by now I know, behind this rose you offer me, lies the next...

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-= Work =-

-= Work =-

-= Work =- Work, Work, Work, The only job I can seem to have, is the one where I toil to make a plan. To find the answers to the pain you left me with. Work, Work, Work, Distracted again, paper and pen. Answer me, reply to this. How do you think you can just keep...

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Emotional Breakfast

Emotional Breakfast

Enthralled, once my only vision was of our life together, eggs and bacon. Panicked, then my only vision was of keeping it together, walking on eggshells Terrified, lasting my own vision was you coming back, sharing late night scrambles. Elated, refreshed, hopeful my...

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Eyes Bleed

Eyes Bleed

Eyes Bleed My eyes bleed not just from crying, not just from expressing this change, but from the endless drone of trying to catch time. Time I lost chasing you. Time that will never be caught. Like you; Lost to code of a mental...

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Darkness Has Fallen

Darkness Has Fallen

Darkness has fallen over the illusion. The veil of love is drenched in the tears of truth. Truth that has become obvious to me, the deeper into my mind I reach to find and review the past. I go further seeking answers, I find the unexpected, I find the cycle. The...

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Just Enough For You

Just Enough For You

Will I ever be enough for you Will i ever see enough for you. Do you know just what you do to me. Will I ever be enough for you. Cus im just enough for me, that should be enough for you Hey ya ya ya im just enough for me, that should be enough for you In my dreams, in...

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Daring endeavors

Daring endeavors

Daring endeavors from life’s biggest dreams, dangerous endeavors no attachment scene. My thoughts of you, thoughts that make me scream My thoughts of you, they penetrate my dreams., Daring endeavors – Distant escape Our hopes and dreams, neatly packed away...

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I and You.

I and You.

I did not need you! I did want you. I could not help you! You could not help yourself. I chose to become open to you. You chose to use it to rip me open from the inside out. I choose to let go YOU choose to walk away. I choose to heal myself YOU choose to hide from...

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The battlefield of you.

The battlefield of you.

My heart, is a battlefield, scarred, torn with wounds left in the wake of your broken promises. A minefield of unexploded ordnance, my dreams of what was going to be. The battle rages on, guilt, blame, excuse. Flank hope, and counter every doubt. Hopelessly and...

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